Mother's Day

Tomorrow is mother's day. My last mother's day as a mother of one. My little prins has given me two gifts so far, one he made at daycare and one he and his daddy made today. The one he made at daycare is a bag of lavender with a flower and a painted hand print, it's beautiful. The one he made today is a box called "All the reasons I love mom" and it's full of little notes explaining why he loves me. It makes my eyes tear up to read it. Granted I am crazy hormonal these days so it might just be that.
Little baby in the belly is still making me sick sick sick and I'm seriously hoping that will stop soon. I am fully in my second trimester as of tomorrow and things should really be getting better.
In other news my plans for a trip to Sweden this summer are currently on hold since I cannot get a more specific date for my citizenship ceremony (if they do allow me to become a Canadian citizen) than "probably in a couple of months". If I miss the ceremony that would be very bad so I just can't plan anything until I know and that might not be until the week before the ceremony. Sometimes bureaucracy sucks!
Been thinking of posting some photos soon as well but I've been so tired that I just can't be asked but one of these days I promise I'll try to get some pics up of W and of the belly. My aim is to do weekly shots of my belly as it starts to grow properly. Another day.

week 15

this week has been a little bit of a set back when it comes to the feeling better part. I've been nauseous and sick for most of it. On the upside though I am eating better these days and I think that this weeks barfing combined with the somewhat better diet has made my weight gain slow down or stop or maybe even reduce a little.
The belly is starting to show a little and I now look like I'm a bit chubby and not at all preggers.
What else can I tell you... hmm I've started my quest of getting W to give up his pacifier before his birthday in a month. So far not so good. We've talked about how big kids don't need pacifiers and we've talked about the pacifier fairy who's going to bring him a gift when he's ready to give up the pacifier but every time I ask him if he's ready yet he tells me in his southern American accent (that I have no idea where he picked up) that: "Not tonight, Mama"

Week 14

Alright a little more time to update.

So to give you some further information. I am currently in my 14th week of pregnancy. Which means that I have gone 13 weeks and some days. The baby is due on October 31 so Halloween baby! I hope it will wear a nice costume coming out.
So far I have experienced all the pleasures of early pregnancy such as extreme nausea, constant vomiting, stuffy nose, nosebleeds, gaining weight, growing in the belly area and it appears my bladder has shrunk. I have also had a urinary tract infection and done a bout of antibiotics. I am tired and hormonal and I cry about the most insignificant things.
I have also grown two bra sizes which J seems to see as a positive thing.

We are currently throwing names back and forth but we seem to have somewhat settled on a girls name. No boys name yet though, so if you guys know of any good boys names then please let me know. We need serious inspiration.

W has taken the news of the baby with varying degree of excitement. At first he cried and told me he doesn't want the baby in mommy's belly. Now he has come to terms with it and he occasionally kisses the belly. He doesn't seem to know if it's a boy or a girl either. He tells me it's a sister one minute and a brother the next. He seems pretty set on the boys name though, Lightning McQueen. I'm not sure about it.

Yes another thing I want to ask you is if any one of you have some advice for properly preparing older child for new baby. I would like it if he didn't hate the baby and if he felt involved and proud to be a big brother. All advice are welcome.

Thanks

The time has come

After 8 odd weeks of puking my guts out, being unable to sleep and gaining weight even though I can't keep a meal down I am finally out of my first trimester, or as I call it: why-did-I-ever-agree-to-this-mester.
Yes people mark your calendars cause we're adding another member to the world.
Baby 2 is due to arrive in late October or early November and we have seen him/her for the first time. We had the first scan last week. Too early to tell if it's a little boy or a little girl though.

I will from now on try to update frequently with all my pregnancy updates but right now I have to feed the older child.

I know

I know I'm a terrible blogger... the kind that never actually writes anything. Well I have my reasons. First I was way too depressed to write anything, then I was working on fixing my life and being less depressed. When I was finished with that something huge happened that I just couldn't write about. And since I couldn't write about it but it was/is such a huge part of my life it felt wrong writing at all and not talk about it.
Regardless I will try to do better and maybe find a way to tell you what's going on. Just give me another couple of days or weeks and I promise I'll be back with more.

Till then
L

the look

http://caroline.feber.se

Here is the link to the awesome website my hubby frequents every day. Right now they're holding a competition where you can choose one of the looks on their editorial and if you're eloquent enough you can win it.

Since I am in dire need of new clothes and have no set plans about going to Sweden before the end of August I need to win this!

The look is fantastic, it's a stripy dress with a gray hoodie and the coolest leather jacket I've seen in a long time. The look is completed by a pair of peep-toe heels.
This is my style and I would look great in it... so I need to win!

Please please please snälla snälla snälla

the look

slow postings...

this fall has been somewhat difficult for me. I had a run in with a depression. And I also found myself totally and utterly absorbed by the Twilight-fever. I have finished reading the books for the second time and I had promised myself I would sit down and try to put into words what I would like to say about this fall once that was done. But now when I'm here all I really want to do is to pick up book one and start right over again. Now this is not a good idea since I have already neglected my school work enough and I should really focus on my work situation.
I am still not ready to put down in words what's going on so I guess if anyone is still reading this you will have to be patient a little while longer.

the anniversary post

Today it's 5 years since we said our vows in that chapel in Las Vegas.

fell apart

I fell apart this weekend.
Came apart at the seems and just cried.
I'm slowly putting myself together again.
Thanks to the beautiful people in my life.





I realize that this is not the real video but I could not embed the original so you guys can go check it out here

coma

I'm finally snapping out of my Twilight coma that I've been in for the last week and a bit. I'll post more once I'm fully detached!